What a year it was!
I couldn’t have asked for a better and a weirder year.
This was the year for which the inner me was waiting for. The one which pushed me off the cliff where I was hanging miserably on a hook.
By the start of 2017, I was out almost out of major anxiety, depression and drinking problem (You gotta applaud my husband here! A big applause please). I guess it had to do with my mother’s sudden demise. Thankfully, I didn’t become a chain smoker or an alcoholic.
I started thinking more rationally and clearly.
The job was not satisfying my hunger. I was bored of doing almost the same stuff for about 6 years. And I was done!
For those who are thinking that she should have taken a leap, pushed herself, piggyback more skills- Great thinking. That’s what I thought and did. Maybe luck wasn’t in favor of me. Destiny had its own plans.
Quit my job and then decided to pursue what I always think of doing. Probably, when I was five and my father used to get me a lot of storybooks. That’s when I started living in words. I just wanted to write. Write and Write!
Always imagined myself a woman in a snugly robe,wearing blood red lipstick, classroom glasses and a typewriter. :-)
I think this inclination only wanted me to shift to ‘creative and creation’ part of my previous job.
I know I am not Jane Austen, J.K Rowling or Virginia Woolf who are very talented but just waiting for an opening to show the world what’s the worth. I went and still going through a self-learning process.
I succeed, I fail. But I try my best to deny to stop!
I take any freelance writing job that comes across to develop my discipline and balance with my learning.
There was a short hurdle when I screwed up a bit. Got distracted, but I had my cushions to protect me.
I think I would have had great karma in my previous lives to be blessed with saviors.
( Although I don’t know where my karma went when I lost HER? I guess I will keep finding the answer till my last breath.)
I learnt that nothing looks as great as your own voice and opinion on paper. Strategies, marketing, tools etc. are secondary, surely important to learn but after a certain time. You have to bring the best baby steps on the table first.
After some time, I got a great news. Oops! WE got a news :) It wasn’t a surprise but a planned one. Although it wasn’t fitting my plan and expecting it to happen soon (looking at our lifestyles and amazing fit conditions) yet I considered as a decision made by the stronger power which makes better plans.
And I believe in reincarnation so this seemed to be the only chance to make the pain more bearable. And I think it’s working.
It’s been a lovely ride till now. Every day with my husband is like a couple who has started dating recently. He has become more than my close friend and every day is full of laughs, giggles and funny plans.
Now, I will never need a drink to clear my head off and be happy. I have learnt to happy high on my own.
I have always considered my hormones crazy and this time they went crazier in the start. But now, it’s fine. The train is slowly back on the tracks. I am so glad this happened when I decided to work from home. Because I know my body is not yet built to work and taking care of myself together. Salute to the ladies who do!
2017 was about more about respect and value for people, time, knowledge, talent and believing that there is a reason for any action. At this time, I am in process of learning to forgive and forget.
I think it will take next whole year to master the art. By then, I will keep writing and keep sharing.
How was your 2017? Please feel free to leave a comment below or drop a message at berryshveta@gmail.com
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